It has been so difficult to find the time to write and get all of my thoughts together. I’ve been feeling a little discouraged because I haven’t been as active on the mami social media pages. It’s really hard to balance both pages and sometimes my personal page is more poppin’. Priorities, I suppose! A balance between a business and starting up my micro-influencer life lol.
Steven and I have a lot of discussions because we both have very similar goals and passions. The ultimate goal is to someday work 100% for ourselves. We are extremely creative people and it’s also extremely difficult when our corporate 9-5 work jobs don’t allow us to have “creative” time.
I am in a leadership position that is very demanding. I don’t really get to clock in and clock out. I am responsible for people outside of myself and I take that responsibility seriously. I can’t do a mediocre job because I care about my team and I want them to be successful. Once I’m out I also have to be a mom and girlfriend. Sometimes I feel stretched so thin! I could work at night, but I also know that they need my quality time. Again, it’s a balance and I’m constantly making tough decisions about how I’m going to use my time.
I guess I’m more cautious now. We’ve been through a lot as a family and I used to be the type of person to just go HARD at everything. I would be up super late at night, stressing out, obsessing and making everyone in the house or around me miserable as hell. After many breakdowns and moments of insanity it finally hit me. I truly realized that nothing on this Earth is more important than your family or your health. I can hustle as hard as I want, but I have to make the right choices for us all.
The problem is I’m impatient AF. I work so hard and I feel like the industry I’m pursuing is over saturated. Everyone wants to be an influencer, capitalize on women empowerment and do the Latina thing. How do you even make yourself stand out? I know my WHY. I know my message and I feel like that’s what is really important. I understand these things take time. I’m also trying to be gentle with myself when I am feeling like I’m falling short of what I should be doing to get where I want. It’s so corny to say that everything has its own timing. Some people blow up by pure accident and others it just takes time to build. I think what Priscilla and I are creating is definitely worth the wait.
So for now, I’ve decided to be happy doing what I can. I am not going to worry about the timeline or how much I can put on my plate. I am going to take small steps and find new ways to constantly improve SOMETHING that I’m doing, even if it’s small. What matters is that I keep moving, not the pace at which I move. What matters is that I don’t give up and celebrate the small wins. Because what I may think is small is HUGE to someone else who may not have the opportunities that I do. I will stop comparing myself to others and have fun.
Do any of you feel this impatience with your passion projects or business? Comment below with your experience and how you’ve redirected your thoughts!