My name is Teresa. I’m a Latina. I’m a wife. I’m a mom to two boys under the age of 2. I went to ASU, received my degree in Elementary Education, and became a 2nd grade teacher. Now here I am, 27 years young, feeling the urge more than ever to finally listen to the voice inside me that’s telling me to write - tell my story to help other women who may be going through what I did.
The last 10 years of my life has not been an easy road to walk down. Luckily, I’ve had an amazing man standing right beside me every step of my journey. I graduated high school and was just about to attend the college of my dreams. However, that day in late August of 2008 turned my world upside down. At 18 years old I was told that my “dad” was not my biological father. There I was...I thought I had the world at my finger tips and all of a sudden it came crashing down. After hours of crying and screaming into my pillow, I pulled myself together and my now husband drove me to the ASU dorms to begin my first week as a college freshman. Days, weeks, and months began to pass and I no longer knew who I was, where I came from, or who I could trust. Nothing was clear anymore.
From that day forward, I became a different person. I became la mujer fuerte who built a wall around my heart to keep it from breaking the way it did. I stayed focus on my goal of graduating and continued down my path even though I felt so broken inside. Every time I’d look in a mirror I would ask myself “who am I?” I would ignore the inner voice I’d hear and dive right into school and my relationship - my safe haven. I never faced the reality of my life.
Throughout the years, I did meet my biological father - a total of 3 times. I found out I have 2 half brothers, after living my life as an only child for so long. I’ve met a family from Tucson who is related to me with a Tia that looks like my identical twin and I never knew. I remember waking up dripping in sweat thinking it was all a dream. Still to this day this is all a difficult pill to swallow, but I have my own growing family who I need to show nothing has broken their mama - it’s made her the woman she is today.
I’m not saying I have all of the answers, because trust me, I don’t. What I do have is some experience in this thing we call life and some stories to share. I’ve dealt with heartache, death, and family/daddy issues. I’m a busy young wife and mom who on a daily basis still asks herself if I’m doing everything I can to make everyone around her happy. I still cry about the news I received when I was 18, but I’m not letting it break me - at least not anymore. I’m determined to be the person I want to be and the live the life I’ve always wanted. Not saying it will be perfect or there won’t be bumps along the road, but I am going to try pretty damn close for perfect imperfection. I invite you on this journey of new life and to stand beside you to help you get to where you want to be despite all the bull shit you’ve faced in your life like I have. Nothing is going to stop us mujeres! We need to be there for one another in this ugly world we live in and make it beautiful again. Adelante Mami!